Moments..

The life is stuck in between your YES or NO, leaving everything at the cliff, hanging in the mid-air.
All the dreams were gone leaving everything wide eyed leaving the slight of hope with the mix of despire. It wasn't you, it wasn't me but still someone somewhere taking care of our dreams and putting together the broken glass.

Our destiny was same but we were following different paths because we dont want to see eachother, but you cant leave your shadow behind you.

All my wounds were healed as time passed away but still when I go back to my memories, you are always there as my shadow but then I recalled a quote that, shadows dont come when you are in the dark, and they will not leave you in the light, but I say that shadows are always with you, you just cant see them in the dark.

I went everywhere just to get you out of my mind but couldn't do it as you were not only in my mind, this thought made my life difficult.
All the promises went invain, nothing was left.

"...I'm no angel, but please don't think that I can't cry..." inspire by bat_zion

Journey

I have no complains with my fate, as I already know that to get something I had to loose something and which is happening but I cant complain even if I want to. Its been a long and tiring journey where I know that I cant find any companion but still I am looking for it. During my journey I met alot of people, places and became the part of many events which helped me in finding my self. I mastered the weather, I mastered the winds, I mastered the water yet to master myself. Every moment is unaware of the next, I never wanted my journey this much full of risks making my destiny more and more difficult but in the same time making me tough, but is it really making me tough or meltimg me down?

I am neither a star nor a moon then why people become covetous, I cant steal anything from them infact they have stolen my radiance leaving me in the darkness all alone.

I have lost my peaceful sleep somewhere in the journey and yet I have dreams knocking at my door.

Should I let them in...............................?

Fun Time

Finally the mids are over...ooh time to relax now...
But no, loads and loads of assignments....but I can't even complain for this as this why I am here...not to enjoy the typical english weather,,,,Ah..!

Had a nice day yesterday, started with the HR result confirmed after some mess, which had almost made sure that i haven't got through the mid, but it was a little misunderstanding which was cleared after sometime..
So the boring HR class was started and everybody went in their dreams....

The 2nd class was of xtrnl mktg...which was called off ..why.. cuz the lec asked us whether we want to have a class or not...we said no ..it was chill time...
So we decided to get something to eat and this was the worst thing as everyone was different things...and then what...we ended up on having chicken tikka and nan...
but it was damn too good with some chilli sauce n mayo....the frnd of mine....ooh what to say..she just want typical pakistani chillified thing to eat..but untill now we haven't find such kinda thing...hopefully we'll find something like this or even close to this....
So the eveing ended with some full stomach...and plans for saturday...

Post Presentation Party

Our group went first..although one member of our group was missing initially but he come after 5 minutes.....so its all set to go....
we started with a few hickups....mouse not working..although we've checked it before..but this happens.....GREAT THINGS ARE ALWAYS DONE IN HICKUPS.....

In came my turn...i was pretty nice..infact no butterflies in the stomach and dryness in the mouth...and then the other group members......it was all terrefic...
The idea for going first came because we wanted to put the burden off our shoulders as soon as possible and secondly we wanted ourselves to be the trendsetters(i know its sounding a bit awkward) not the followers.....we were satisfied and were thinking around 60%....

So all groups went with their presentations....group1 was very mucch aggressive initially...but as their presentation went on...they went down too...

Group 6 was nice...everyone was impressed but unity was lacking...
Group 4 was same like group 6...no specifics..
Group 5 met with the toughest part of their luck.....no prep...no rehersals...nothing.....

The only group which we thought can give us the tough time......Group 3....
Approach was there.....technical stuff was there...skills were there....the only thing missing ...LUCK...

Finally the results came out and What...!
we got the highest 74%......Hurray...!!!!!
At first we didn't believe ...... but we had to...why..cuz..

WE WERE JUST THAT DAMN GOOD.....!

OPSMAN

13:26, Lab6

Half an hour left in the opsman presentation......
Although its not that difficult but we have made it very difficult indeed and nobody knows why and how this happened as usual...
Everyone is innocent and stranger to the problems but this is usual with every other guy.....

Now dont think that I have mastered my part of the presentation....I'll be revising it after say....15 minutes...
You know last moment preparation.....I am a big fan of it...and I know that you are too..

Checked all my mails, orkut, moodle and still there is lot of time left to study that what I think so I decided to spend some time here......
I think its all done now...I mkust go back to the revision now...as they say there is always the next time ..I am saying this for the blog not for the presentation.....

Best of Luck Adeel.....x

Sunday Morning

Its 12:54pm

Lying on my bed with the laptop looking through the window, all I can see are trees with the mix of brown, yellow and green leaves and dark colored branches....blue sky with the hint of sun and accompanied by the borders of grey clouds.....and dont dont forget the cool breeze making everything in the atmosphere dance....

And these thoughts came to my mind.....for my best friend

You always made me live with the one I am living with and start a new relationship everyday and live with the new things as they come along.
Before anything came between us you were my best friend, the one I used to run to whenever I had something gone wrong, whenever i needed to share something and you used to say that it will be ok and always suggested some nice things that I should do. When I come home at night and lay down my head, all I seem to think about is/was you.
It was you who made me met my life knowing the fact that it could have been you. Although I love her but then what are you to me....What should I do now...
I dont want to go now, leaving everything down the road but I also dont want to stay to see you crying, to see your eyes dreaming in the mid air.
But I really need to get it together.
The situation is getting out of control day by day. I dont want to hurt but I cant even let her go but she may not understand me this is why all of this is going on.
I tried to fight but the feelings were just too strong

Inspired n dedicated...!

Smooth Sailing

Finally everything is settling in now or I have to pretend that its settling in .......whatever it is, I am assuming that its much more settled than my early days here..

HR test went fine....although its a common answer after each test:), the result will tell the whole story.....
Last moment study always pay.....this is what I think.....(but I know this is what every other student thinks...) so the test came out good...... followed by a finance class.....now this is something stupid....test and then class....

I have made some new friends here.....as they say...friends are always like minded....so i am trying to figure out that if we are friends then what is the common factor.....I am sure there must be some/any, as otherwise we wont be even talking to eachother...

Last night's samosa and pakora party was great....with some aloo bukhara chutnii...yummy yum yumm!!!!!!
I wanted to thank my friend for the treat, but then I thought that I always say..NO SORRIES & THANKS IN FRIENDS..

But I decided to say thanks, but damn....my cell's battery went down when I tried to send the sms....so I had to recharge it....and then after abt 1 hr I was able to send a sms just to thank for the nice ride home and samosas and pakoras.....forget to tell that 21st Nov is not too far away....

So looking forward to 21st Nov..........................
by the way I have marketing test coming up tomorrow...so i better do some preps.....

Today

It was 10:00 pm and i was walking back home from the bus stop then i thought, why am I here.....just to walk back home alone and when you haven't really have the home, its just a place to sleep only if you are lucky enough to have it too.

Anywayzzzz,

After prayers my mate had to get the ticket as he was flying back to Pakistan in emergency....so send some time with him, going here and there for his ticket....and as usual he was having some idiotic problems....mainly lacking in resources.

Luckily he got all his problem solved and he flied to Pakistan.......

In the mean time, I stayed at home alone
answered some phone calls but they increased my desire to fly back home just to see the faces of my loved ones...
just for once but tough luck.....!!!!!!!!
but there always a next time as one of my teacher says........

so it was sofa and me with my laptop playing "What is love" from One Night At Roxbury......at the loudest volume may be to cope with my frustration of being alone on this day.......

Clouds covered the sky and it started drizzling, lasting for only 5 minutes....and the time was 5:00 pm..


I was dying to go out, to lessen up the frustration of being alone.......
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10:00 pm...way back home alone....

NO THE MEMORIES WERE ACCOMPANYING ME >>>>THUS THE WALK TO BACK HOME WAS ENDED WITH A SMILE

Eid day was over......

What is this? Truth, Future, Hate, or Confusion.

Do you ever pause and wonder whether anybody cares? Do you ever think, "Does anybody understand what goes inside the real me? Does anyone know my deepest heartcries?" Do you ever wish there was somebody you could be yourself with and not have to pretend?

Do you wonder if anybody out there understand the confusion you feel, or just how hard the life can be sometimes? Especially when you look ahead to the future, -The Future?

You feel like, "Where are we heaading anyway? Seems like the world's in the fast lane - destination unknown!!" Do you ever look around, ???

Even wonder about all this when you're alone in your bed at night? Or may be when you're sitting in the class? Or at work? Or when you're struggling just to make it though another day?

May be you'd rather not think about it. You don't have time or you don't have the answers and it seems easier to keep going and keep putting it out of your mind. Yet deep down inside you can't quite shake the feeling of "What's wrong with this picture, anyway?

Ever feel lost sometimes? Or confused, lonely, frustrated, scared? But you can't let on to anybody,- That wouldn't be cool, right?
Then again, cool or not cool, you still have these moments and you don't know what to do about it.

So you try to be happy and have a good time with your friends. But the things you think will make you happy just don't fill that empty feeling deep inside of you....

Do you ever imagine what it's like for a guy or a girl your age who lives on the other side of the world? Lifestyles are at such extremes! some folks are flying high, racing down the information highway, surfing cyber space while others are sweating it out in the fields, slaving away.....

Do you ever had those times when you wish you could just stop the world and get off?

Do you ever wonder about the other guy? Is he happy or is he same as you? Does he or she have the same fears and tears, thoughts and feelings as you? Do you ask yourself whether he or she really understands you and cares about you?

Do you ever feel like the world is jam packed with so many voices, so many people talking, talking, talking, but you can't quite figure out what they're saying? You hear someone say that they know the answers, but thy don't seem any happier than you are. Deep down they're just as you are. So who's to know? Is there anything that can heel the heartache you feel inside?

Is there something that you can hold on to, something solid, something that can save your dying spirirt before it fades away into oblivion?..........

Her first sight.....

When I enter

saw her uneven hair

resting on her shoulders

eyes so deep, filled like an ocean

with a slim smile at her lips

she welcomed me

with the pink satin shimmering in her black coat

covering her sheer elegance in the executive class

and when she turned

her hair danced at her shoulders and fall around her cheeks

with her pendant and earrings accompanied

bracelets wriggled and blue watch shined

taking m out of my dreams

asking where were I...

and then come the time to depart

the ultimate journey we are here for